Kelly released a 19 minute song and while I didn’t have the patience to listen to half a Law & Order SVU episode, I did have enough to read the lyrics. Though he didn’t fess up to the crimes he’s accused of in “I Admit”, R. Kelly did divulge into a lot of his personal business and exposed his own demons on the track.
“Broke Ass Legend”:
The biggest revelation from R. Kelly’s was the admission that he’s broke:
“I admit it, however since the first day (first day)
That without knowin’ that I signed my publishin’ away (away)
I admit it, I was young and caught up and so blind, yeah (so blind)
Said I had dyslexia, couldn’t read all them contracts, yeah
Now the truth in this message, is I’m a broke ass legend (message, legend)
The only reason I stay on tour is ’cause I gotta pay my rent”
He continues, singing about owing the IRS $20 million, being denied a loan, and having to stay in Homewood Suites: Extended Stay Hotel:
“I admit I had to borrow a couple of M’s from the label (label)
All these hits out but I couldn’t put food on the table (table)
I was told I had to sell my cars, I was told I couldn’t get a loan (cars, loans)
Said I owed 20 million to the IRS and they were coming to get my home (oh, oh)
I admit I was feeling stupid, staying in the Homewood Suites”
Molestation:
The 51 year old musical icon admitted to being sexually abused as a child, which could explain his alleged twisted approach to sex. On the track, R. Kelly sings:
“Now, I admit a family member touched me (touched me, touched me, touched me)
From a child to the age 14, yeah
While I laid asleep, took my virginity
So scared to say something, so I just put the blame on me”
Kelly also touched on reports of him being a pedophile, reportedly engaging in sexual relationships with teenage Black girls over the span of his career. He points out that he’s never been convicted, but one report argues it’s because of the color of his victims, saying had he been accused of the statutory rape of a teenage White girl, R. Kelly would’ve been under the jail by now:
“I admit I fuck with all the ladies, that’s both older and young ladies (ladies, yeah)
But tell me how they call it pedophile because that shit is crazy (crazy)
You may have your opinions, entitled to your opinions (opinions, opinions)
But really am I supposed to go to jail or lose my career because of your opinion”
Sex Cult:
Kells then spoke on allegations of forcing women into a sex cult, kidnapping women who have to ask permission when to eat, bathe and what they wear:
“What’s the definition of a cult?
What’s the definition of a sex slave?
Go to the dictionary, look it up
Let me know, I’ll be here waiting
Now I admit that I got some girls that love me to pull they hair (they hair)
Now I admit that they love me to talk dirty when I pull they hair (they hair)
Some like me to spank them and
Some like to give brain and
What some of these girls want, is too much for the radio station
Look I’m just a man y’all (man y’all)
Not a monster or beast (no, no)”“Say I’m abusing these women, what the fuck that’s some absurd shit (what?)
They’re brainwashed, really? (really)
Kidnapped, really? (really)
Can’t eat, really? (really)
Real talk, that shit sound silly (yeah)”
He then speaks on the family who accused R. Kelly of kidnapping their daughter, in particular, her father:
“And if you really, really wanna know (know)
Her father dropped her off at my show (show)
And told this boy to put her on the stage (yeah)
I admit that she was over age (age)
I admit that I was feeling her and I admit that she was feeling me (she was feeling me)
I admit that that’s just some shit that come with being a celebrity”“Now I’m only saying all this shit, ’cause how they tryna play me, yeah (yeah, oh)
I admit that this is no disrespect to the parents (no disrespect)
But this is my advice to you ’cause I’m also a parent (parent)
Don’t push your daughter in my face, and tell me that it’s okay (my face, okay)
‘Cause your agenda is to get paid, and get mad when it don’t go your way”
As far as having a group of women trapped in a sex cult, Kells obviously denies it, while comparing himself to Hugh Hefner who, like Kelly, had several girlfriends reportedly living with him.
The Monster Behind The Mic:
Fans and “haters” alike have fallen on either sides of the fence for Kelly’s new song, but one woman who stands strong in her disdain for Kelly is his ex-wife and mother to his 3 children, Andrea “Drea” Kelly. Drea, who starred on VH1’s Hollywood Exes, recently opened up about surviving domestic abuse, and when R. Kelly’s song only mentioned having numerous girlfriends and being a “freak” as his only flaws, Drea lost it.
She took to Instagram with her own rendition of “I Admit (The Remix)”, accusing Kelly of beating her during their marriage and being a deadbeat father to their children:
“THE REMIX:
Admit it
Admit it
Admit it
Your mama IS watching over you
And rolling over in her grave
because of the ABUSIVE things you do
You say she’s looking down from heaven So there’s nothing she didn’t see
Which means she saw you BEAT me from heaven and neglect her grand babies……Admit it
Admit it
Admit it
Your children you don’t see
Because you treat them like your fans
And not your flesh and blood, please
Being a dead beat dad is a conscious choice
You could face time w them EVERYDAY
they’d SEE your face and HEAR your voice,so…..
Admit it
Admit it
Admit it
Then go get some professional help
Own the pain that you’ve inflicted on others’
All by yourself
Even though you can’t read or write
it didn’t stop you from making hit songs
But you don’t have to read or write
to know Domestic Violence is wrong, so….
Admit it
Admit it
Admit it
Your past is not is an excuse
Just because you were abused
doesn’t mean you get to ABUSE…..
Admit it
Admit it
Admit it
Cause the TRUTH will set you free
Nothing good is gonna come to you
UNTIL YOU DO RIGHT BY ME”
Kelly is still reeling from the “success” of his new single and has not responded to Drea’s lyrics. Listen to R. Kelly’s “I Admit” below: